Hope you are doing well,
Well, I would like to share with you something I have been facing may be for around 5 years or more so far, I have been suffering from a sever insomnia that almost destroy my days.
Regardless of the sleeping place, time, conditions or the efforts I exert, I stay wakeful at night with very distributing few sleeping hours,my normal average sleeping hours fro me is 5 hours per day, and they are not consecutive.
The reason being that, that whenever I put my head on the pillow, I find a flood of scary and worrying ideas come to my mind and those ideas are a mix of thoughts of old memories, lost opportunities, regrets, fears, bad experiences, they are increasing horribly day after day as a result of a number of surrounding problems, challenges and fears I face and unfortunately have no hand to change or control, , and without getting into details of those thoughts, I still feel that God granted me a lot of blessings I am thankful for, but still I can not control my fears, and close that thinking door
Yet the sleeping problem is slowly killing me, it ruins my days, I awake everyday , tired , pale ,losing concentration, I go work everyday barely can achieve my duties as off the accompanied feeling of being fatigue, and losing the appetite of doing anything that previously used to make me happy
Some of my friends advised me that this is an early symptom of depression and advised me to visit a psychiatric, however I am not into this solution, as I know the reasons behind my case.
I have been trying different healthy medicines and sleeping aids, but by time they lost their effect, and when I use a strong medicine, it gets me extremely tired as if I am an addict who is totally losing concentration and reacting slowly.
I tried to exercise and walk, drink hot milk or hot beverage and herbs, before sleeping, but again no result, still awake!
And by the way, I am writing this email at 4: 23 am, Cairo timing, as I awake up suddenly without no reason, as usual.
I do not know why I wrote these thoughts, I have been hiding them for so long, may be I am seeking a solution, or may be I wanted to speak loudly, or just for sharing experience.
Thank you all,
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